Jerusalem, Israel - Mar. 13, 2016 - On Sunday night the Menachem Begin Heritage Center auditorium in Jerusalem, Israel, was filled to capacity for the premier public showing of the documentary film, "Lonely, But not Alone," This video autobiography of Rabbi Nathan Lopes Cardozo was also shown to a smaller Israeli preview audience at the cafe Tmol Shilshom on Motzei Shabbat.

Cardozo has an interesting and unique background and personal story. Before coming to Israel, he learned in England's famed Gateshead Yeshiva for over 12 years. Cardozo received semicha from the Rosh Yeshiva Rabbi Aryeh Leib Gurwitz, who, when he was young, was chavrusa of Rabbi Elchanan Wasserman, the famed disciple of the Chofetz Chaim

Cardozo admits he struggles with his Jewish identity. For many years he was a "real yeshiva bachur" and "bought into the chareidi philosophy."  He finds Modern Orthodoxy "tedious," and Conservative and Reform are not options for him. He writes, "My Judaism is one of dissent, protest and spiritual war against too much conformity."

His atypical beginning and background must be a strong factor and influence in his world view. Cardozo married an Orthodox woman when he was 21, and they have five children and "lots of grandchildren and even great-grandchildren." 

However, he was born in the Netherlands to a non-Jewish mother and Portuguese Jewish father who was influenced by Spinoza. Reading and studying various religions as a teenager, young Cardozo tried to learn Talmud from a German translation. He converted as a teenager in Holland. His mother converted later, while his brother who became a dental surgeon, did not convert. 

Dr. Jacques Lopes Cardozo came to Jerusalem for both premiers. Both Cardozos, as well as one of the rabbi's daughters who was born after the family moved to Israel, Nechama Atlas Lopes Cardozo, were featured in the film and answered audience questions after it was shown.

It is a fascinating story. After 27 years of marriage, Lopes Cardozo's  parents remarried. One son was an Orthodox rabbi and the other remained not Jewish. This situation is most keenly felt when they discuss burial and yayin nesech.

Rabbi Lopes Cordozo founded the David Cardozo Academy, where he teaches and leads a think tank and writes. The autobiographical video takes us back to his roots in Holland. I would have liked to hear much more about his remarkable mother-- the brave woman who hid Jews in her house and saved them from the Nazis in World War II.